So I had a Major Wardrobe Crisis today. I had a different outfit on and I second-guessed myself and changed into this:here a bunch, last weekend), my green sweater tank (last worn here, and very under-utilized this month), my green linen pants (last worn here), and my red platforms (last worn here).
So. Did any of you watch "What Not to Wear" this week? With the administrative assistant (my same title!) who lost her job because she dressed too crazy for work? And one of the things Stacy and Clinton harped on was her lime green obsession (I'm wearing lime green!)?
I ended up in my closet last night, and I ripped apart my September capsule (I usually have them done well ahead of time). Now I don't know what I'm doing. I'm full of self-doubt, mixed with the desire to trash this whole challenge and wear what I want.
And I started having all these questions about my work-appropriateness. Am I dressing too wacky for my job? Should I tone it down and wear more pencil skirts, nice blouses and jackets? Do I need less colour and more basic neutrals?
I was *this* close to completely doubting myself. Calling in sick! I actually set the timer, got into my pose and then....
As it is, I'm not going to keep these pants. I don't like how they fit (crotch-tacular!), so after this month, they are going in the donation bag.
I'm not looking for affirmations or to have my ego soothed. I just wanted to share that I have insecurities and doubts all the time about my outfits. Sometimes I don't know what the heck I'm doing, and I take risks that don't work (but sometimes they do!). I'm not going to give up this challenge, because it really is helping me see my habits and strengths/weaknesses, and it's helping me figure out who I am, style-wise.
It's also probably partly hormonal (ha!). I went for a long power-walk down along the water tonight after work, and the waves and windsurfers, the swallows and gulls swooping and soaring in the wind, and the smell of the ocean...I feel so much better already. Now, some wine, and I'll be all back to my ol' self.
Bonus for reading all that stuff - a Vizzini picture!